Change

Yes, it's true, it most times isn't fair. Actually it seems as though it's never fair. Time again and again, you do the right things, give your love, time and effort endlessly and it seems like even with all your faith and trust, you get slapped in the face. You feel drained, used, unworthy, and disappointed; and still somehow you keep moving forward. You try to keep calm and peaceful, you try to regain your confidence and you try to keep positive, but you sigh, you pout, you feel 'weird' and are 'bummed out'. You wonder, "Well…what's next?" You followed the stupid rules, you abided for more than 3 years in unsuitable conditions, compromised and tried to keep the peace, hoping that maybe things will change for the better. Hah! Yea Right! It didn't, and then to top it off, things make a turn for the worst. You're simply tired with the way things are thrown your way, and although you know its right to always do the right things, you wish you could be satisfied with revenge, or see the people/things/situations fall flat on their faces, or maybe have their face slapped as they have done to you. But no; somehow you don't get that satisfaction and you then finally conclude, that this situation and what you're going through isn't fair.

Change isn't easy. It never is; unless of course, perhaps you've just won the lottery and could build a lovely little villa in the Caribbean. J But no, change usually happens when you're not ready for it, you're unprepared, you feel awkward, betrayed, and pushed into a new direction, whether you're ready for it or not. It has already been understood that this year is all about Change. So despite the sadness that creeps in, the tugging in your heart, or the scare of beginning something new, go with it. The Universe/God is all powerful, all knowing, and all wisdom, and just because part of our human traits are to forget about this heavenly intelligence and fight what we not yet understand, doesn't mean that what's happening isn't good. What is happening to you is a blessing in disguise; keep moving forward even if there isn't ground ahead of you, even if you don't know what direction to head in; ground will appear before you and you will be lead to where you need to be.

Why do we find it so hard to let go what is no good for us. Why do you resist so fervently? Open your eyes, or as a funny comment I heard the other day, "Your eyes are the window to the soul, but it looks like yours need a little Windex!" Don't you wish to be free and happy again? Who likes being around someone that never smiles, that never is positive, that always tries to take, take, take? I don't! Love yourself and value yourself and be gentle, the change is already traumatic, so be gentle with yourself and trust in what the Universe has to offer. If you thought what you had was the best, well think again, because what the Universe/God has in store for you is ten times better! And for all your suffering/prerequisites/lessons weren't in vain; you deserve the good things coming to you. Embrace the change, and know even though you feel like you gave in vain, that you haven't'. And about that revenge or satisfaction, know that "every dog has their day", "everyone has their day in the sun", and they will never forget you. Because you held your light out genuinely and let it shine so bright, overflowing with love, and they'll never find somebody like you. You're a unique being, with specific spiritual duties and desires to carry out and there may be similar beauty, and similar beings, but never completely the same.

Somebody is madly in love with youuuuu! J

So what are you waiting for? Move the hell out of that apartment! Sever, slice and dice that unhealthy relationship! Get rid of that junk in your trunk! And look up and give thanks; even through the tears, it's gonna' get better; blessings will be poured in your direction! J The Universe guarantees it! J